Clocks on FF

It’s been a long time WordPress since the last time I wrote an entry.

Everything’s pretty much fast forward nowadays. I can’t have enough time for anything anymore. I still have to balance my academics with my dancing. I have pretty much fucked up teachers for my minors, and I’m not doing any progress lately with my majors. Aside from doing required homeworks given almost daily, I have to deal with different kinds of people since I have to teach my choreography every once in a while. Since I’m the newly appointed president of our division’s dance crew, I have to take the gift/curse of implementing the rules without getting anyone offended.

Oh and rules.. I don’t like to do them too. But I understand they are necessary if we want to attain a certain goal. In my case, we had very limited time regarding out presentation for the CS Orientation, and we need to budget each practice efficiently.  

I’m trying to sleep as early as I can, too. A hard thing to do for an insomniac. I’ve been doing so much stuff that all I can do is spend extra time at night to finish all of it. End result? Sleepy class hours and sickly mood. -___-

I’ll try my best to add another entry as much as possible. Though I don’t think I have the time to do that int eh upcoming weeks. There’s just a lot things I need to catch up on. So, til we meet again, WP. 🙂

Fire Bender Wannabe

Just got back to editing videos again. If this is what boredom makes me do every time it strikes, then please let it visit me often? 😀 I know I’m not really good at video editing at present.. but heck at least I’m having fun while I’m at it!

Credits to James Cansancio for the vid and Detonation Films for the flame footage.

Tribute to Grandma

Just when I thought everything was at its best, and everything was okay, this comes up.

Honestly, I feel totally blanked out right now. I don’t know what to think, I don’t know what to feel, I don’t even know what I’m supposed to write. Maybe I’ll just go the part where tears would come running in my face every time I think of it.

I love my grandma. She’s just the greatest. I mean, I totally respect her and love her and disobeying her doesn’t even cross my mind. Maybe because all she ever showed to me was pure love from the start. She’s the reason why I’m even into dancing now, because she’s the one encouraging us to take dance workshops when we were still in grade school. She even gives me extra allowance now when I’m kinda out of cash. And she even remind me to put a smile in my face always and take away that frown that I have every time I’m at home.

But what totally moved me was when she heard about this…thing. She just found out recently that my aunt had plans of making me stop going to school (and I’m an incoming 4th year college student btw, which is the crucial part of college). They had the talk while they were having lunch, and just as my grandma heard about it, she just shouted like “What?! He’s gonna stop schooling?” and walked away from the dining table. Just thinking about it just makes me teary eyed, since she just had a mild stroke and it kinda hurts me looking how she has difficulty walking, plus she’s depressed, thinking about me.

I knew about what happened with my grandma’s walkout scene over lunch when we had this long talk with my aunt and mom. And seriously, I hate long, irritating, pressuring talks that puts the spotlight on me. IHATEITIHATEITIHATEIT! GAHH! I even promised myself, if they’ll take that plan seriously and make me stop school, I’m gonna kill myself. Literally. No joke.

I’ll still figure things out between me, my grandpa, my aunt, my mom..and myself =.=  But I’m confident in standing up for myself because I know, my grandma’s always got my back.

PS

I’ll prolly forget about what I wrote here tomorrow. So good luck to me and to whatever will happen. >__<

Just Another Busy Thursday

Damn. So this is what they call being busy. And this is how frustrating it feels when you see time just like diamond.

Well as always, I have my Psychology class at 9:15AM. Usually I wake up around 8AM (which is pretty late already, considering the 30-min ride from our place). However today I was able to get up around 7AM, since the thoughts for the day keep bothering me making me sleep so uneasily. So yea, i got to school early and was able to make my assignment just in time before our teacher stepped into the room. Sat around for about an hour before we went to the food court to have a working lunch.

I actually had my afternoon all planned out already. At 1PM we were gonna have our SAD Consultation.. and it doesn’t matter if it takes hours as long as I can be able to have my ‘sideline’ at 3PM and meeting with the Ciphers Dance Crew at 4PM. However, it turns out we were gonna be the 3rd one meeting our teacher and I had to endure a dragging 2 more hours to wait for the other groups to finish their SAD Consultation. During those 2 hours I just can’t keep myself from looking at the time, even if I was distracting myself by watching Kimi ni Todoke. But still that didn’t help. At 3PM, my group mates and I were able to get into the room with our teacher and got through with the consultation. Gone through the Ciphers meeting at 4PM, with a lot of calls and messages from my friend who offered me the sideline. Fortunately, that friend understood that I also had other responsibilities to take care of. So yeah.. I got there past 5PM already, and was worried about my dance practice @ 6PM. (I hate being late at practice. I had to pay fines and do additional warm-up exercises -_-) The client wasn’t really that computer-literate, so I had a little bit of a problem explaining to him some stuff regarding the problems and recommendations on the PC. In addition, the PC can’t read my HDD and even corrupts folders of my friend’s Flash Drive. Yeah, it did hassle me, but I wouldn’t do that much effort without being paid. At least I was able to earn extra cash. $__$

As for the last activity of the day, Lord’s Artwerkz Dance Crew practice, I was able to unnerve and have fun and just sweat out those negative vibes I had for the day, not to mention I was able to see and talk to her again during practice. Seeing her look at me just makes me smile and makes me want to see her do the same. I dunno. She just has this ability to make me feel refreshed with her smile and cute laugh 😀 More often, I do consider her just being an inspiration/crush/someone I just like, but sometimes I kinda think of her just as a little sister or kinda like a kindergarten playmate. Ya know..just laughing about stuff and teasing each other if someone gets a step wrong, and not minding other people whether they care or not.. ya know what I’m saying?

At the end of the day, we should be thinking what really life should be. It’s not really all about being a busy person working day and night for survival. It’s just enjoying life itself. We wouldn’t last long if we know we don’t love the things we do and do the things we love. Sometimes, all we need to do is relax. Laugh. Play. Just like kindergarten. 🙂

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